Was gonna be a cute post..
Uhh sooo uhh. I want to be all like awww so cute. But just I was about to write this post.. that stupid song came on.. why!? Uh, it pains my heart.
Yet it reminds me. Nothing will happen. When I think something is going my way, it’s really not. Love doesn’t happen to me. Crushes don’t happen to me. I really want to be like uhh he’s so cute. Like uhh guy crush. uhh. But no that song plays. The song that reminds me that I’ve been used. I’ve been hurt. I’ve been humiliated. Lie to. Deceived.
I’m trying to build up my self confidence and trust in those around me. It’s been a tough road. I’m trying. I just wish the people around me will actually stay with me. So far I have one friend I can count on to be with through all shitty parts of life. Now if I can find a few more friends like that.. and maybee one day a guy. A girl can dream.
Already feel like shit. I didn’t need you to criticize my actions, let alone tell me I made a terrible decision. You don’t know my side of the story. You don’t even ask for the details. Just fucking criticize me! Fuck you. Don’t even care about this fucking position anymore! Every freakin time I think I make a right decision, you ALWAYS find a way to put me down. SO DONE WITH THIS SHIT!
People talk about how hard long distance relationships are but nobody talks about the struggle of long distance friendships. I would give my left leg right now to just be able to sit in our pjs and watch movies or to just be able to give a big fucking hug.
My Love is Back!!!!!
More attractive than ever! My heart is not to be played with!! Uhhhhhh Justin! <33333
Knew this was gonna happen..
I told myself I was going to make sure to not let it go this far. Yet here I am. I hate boys. I want to say especially him.. But he’s pretty great.. Conflicted. I knew this was going to happen.